Very proud...

I feel the need to make a post after what we have experienced over the last few days. First of all I want to say that I'm very proud of Amy. We have been on such a roller coaster of emotions over the past 9 weeks or so but these last few days have been crazy.

After hearing the news and having the procedure on Friday, Amy went with me to shoot a wedding on Saturday and did a maternity session on Sunday. Words can not express how proud I was of her, especially in the maternity session. You would have never known that she went through a miscarriage by watching her. It was a great session and it really gave us hope for the future instead of being sad for past events.

Through it all, God has been the center of our emotions so we have been able to lean on Him during this time. We have been so blessed with love and support from our family, friends, and even some of our clients who have reached out to show their support.

God certainly works in mysterious ways and has proven this to us over the last few days. However, we feel like God is preparing us for great things and allowing us to use this experience to move us forward rather then holding us back.

As I told Amy, this is only the beginning for us and we are looking forward to seeing what God has in store for us!

Ben

God is Good

Well, it's been a busy, very emotional week for us. 

Monday - I had been talking about trying out some new OBGYN's for some time now, so we decided to stay a little closer to home and go to my family gyno, Dr. Jafarnia.  After meeting with him, I felt very comfortable and happy with our decision.  He scheduled an ultrasound for him to check up on everything.

Wednesday - Ben had a meeting, so he wasn't able to make the appointment, but it was so routine for me by now, that it was no big deal.  I waited for almost two hours to get in.  The ultrasound tech was super nice and she was constantly communicating what she saw with me, so that was a nice change.  She asked me a couple of times if I was sure on my date of last period, because she was measuring me at about 6 weeks (I should have been 8 weeks).  She kept saying it was a little confusing, but that the doctor would explain more to me.

Dr. Jafarnia met with me in his office and told me that they could hear no heartbeat and the baby had stopped growing at 6 weeks.  I had had a miscarriage and my body had held on to the baby for 2 weeks now.  My mind was reeling.  He told me that they would have to perform a small surgery-type procedure to clean out my uterus, because my body had not.  I couldn't get into that yet...I could barely wrap my brain around the fact that my baby was no longer growing.  I left in a haze....called Ben and broke the news.  God is so good to us, because even in the midst of our grief, we felt a sense of peace that told us that God was with us no matter what.

I read this forward that said something like:  God never takes things out of your grasp to be cruel, simply to open your hands to receive something better.

Friday - My procedure was scheduled for 8:30 am.  They forget to tell you that you'll have to wait for hours to simply get registered and to pay for the procedure up front.  After getting through that ordeal with a few tears, we were finally in the Day Surgery waiting room, waiting for them to let me in and get me prepped.  It was so nerve racking!!  I mean, I had to face a few fears of mine head on here...First of all, I never imagined ever being in any type of surgery...I'm sure no one ever does...  I'm not a fan of needles, getting blood taken, or IV's, these are all scary enough for me...but after all the poking and proding I've been through, I feel like I got over some fears! (not that I would like to go through them again! haha) After all the preparations and getting to give my hubby a few kisses, I get rolled into a huge operating room with huge lights and white walls, and people in masks...lol you know one cool thing that i do remember, is that they had clouds painted on the ceiling :)  that was a nice, relaxing touch I think.  Either way, fears and all, God was so good to me, giving me a peace and letting me know he was with me.  I was under general anesthesia, so after they put me to sleep, I felt nothing of course, until I woke in the recovery room.  Extremely groggy and having a few abdominal cramps (which they said was normal), they gave me some pain medication and let me sleep a little bit longer.  I start waking up a little bit more and my mom and my sweet husband were allowed to come in and see me.  I got some yummy graham crackers and cranberry juice as my first meal of the day, and then they pretty much let me get dressed and leave whenever I felt ready.  

So, today is the day after this whole ordeal, and to tell you the truth, I feel great!  A little Tylenol took care of some of the achy muscles they said I would have and as far as emotionally, I feel such a sense of closure that gives me peace.  God has big things in our future, and we know that He will never let us down.  There will be baby Watson's in the future...but for now, we will be patient and know that God is in control!

We love all of you and thank you for all the support and the prayers from all our friends and family.  God bless you all!

AW

Oranges and Spaghetti-O's

Two nights ago ben and I shot a wedding, which normally would have been pretty...well, normal! Haha but it was my first wedding pregnant, and to add to the fun, I was also feeling a bit under the weather. Only a few days before I had been sick as a dog...which normally would have sucked, but it seems to suck 100 times worse when you're pregnant. Man, I sound like a downer....in reality, after being stuck in the house and in my bed for the past few days, it was a relief to get out! God is so good...He not only gave me the energy to get through it, but to even have a good time! It was a great wedding. Check out our Red Room Studios Blog in a few days to get a sneak peak on it!

Other than that, I've been having trouble finding things that I want to eat. Its hard to explain, because its not that I feel nauseated, I just don't want stuff! I get random cravings for food, and usually by the time I get the food in front of me, I don't want it anymore. That's a fun game :P

Oranges have definitely been my top craving and very healthy, so I'm happy about that :)

Today I craved: Cheesy Enchiladas (Tex-Mex style) and Spaghetti-O's

AW

Hello 2009!!

Well it's January 1, 2009 and we fully expect God to do huge things in our lives this year. We are currently looking for a home, prepping for a baby, running a business, and trying to rest in the meantime.

I'm writing this for Amy since she is feeling sick at the moment. On New Year's Eve we were hanging out with family and Amy ended up catching a virus. Apparently there has been something going around and of course Amy gets it right away. It started as a cough this morning and escalated to a fever and her running to the bathroom. She's currently feeling a little better and the temperature has dropped due to her mom intervening and doing things mothers do best while I sit on the sidelines wondering what is going on :)

Keep Amy in your prayers as she battles this virus. She gets worried about the baby due to the virus however I have been able to calm her down for the most part. While she is just now 7 weeks pregnant, it's amazing to see how a mother's love develops. She is constantly thinking about the baby and has completely changed into "mother" mode which I adore. Now, if she can only control the random crying....yea, I'm not holding my breath on that.

Ben's tidbits: Amy is having random cravings, nothing dramatic or strange. Currently she is on an Orange Juice kick and is craving Vitamin C like crazy. Not a bad thing :)

Ben